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My oldest son and my gift for worrying were born on the same day. 

When Zack was an infant, newly home from arriving in the world, I had a fear of letting him cry.  By that, I mean letting him cry at all.  One day, after one of those long nights when mommy and he who cried had been up all night, one of my cousins dropped by to see the new addition to the family.  When she arrived, I was sitting on the couch and sobbing.  She asked what had caused me to be so upset and I told her that I wanted to take a bath.

My cousin blinked a couple of times and said, quietly because she'd dealt with lots of new mothers in the family, "Mary Anne, go take a bath." I protested that Zack might cry or need me.  She said the baby was in his crib and he couldn't yet walk or roll over.  He might get upset, but he wasn't going to get hurt because mom took a few minutes to bathe.  I took the monitor to the bathroom and had a long soak.  Mommy felt much better and when Zack woke, he felt better too - especially because mommy felt like playing.

...continue reading "The Trouble With Mister Ducks"

A while back, shortly after the death of the late, great Paul Harvey, I blogged about his catchphrase - "the rest of the story." As that blog post advocated, the rest of the story can be a writer's best friend.  This post is a follow-up to that one because even the rest of the story has a flip side.  That flip side can be the rest of your story.

A Faerie Fated Forever was inspired by my muse and I discovering the famous Clan McLeod legend from the Isle of Skye in Scotland.  That clan has a faerie flag and shares blood with the wee folk thanks to a handfast marriage between a former laird and a faerie princess. After a year and a day the faerie had to return home, leaving behind the laird and their infant son.  The faerie returned to comfort her son one evening when music from a party drew his nurses away.  Left alone for the first time, the baby cried and the faerie mother soothed her son by wrapping  him in a special cloth.  The swaddling cloth was a faerie flag that could be used 3 times to save the clan. 

Well, that's a great legend, but my muse had to finish it - to find the rest of the story.  What happened to the laird who let his faerie bride leave without a fight or a fine bargaining session with the King of the Faeries?  Why didn't he at least try to renegotiate his deal with the King?  And later, surely the then-single laird married.  Let's say, he contracted a marriage because the clan coffers were dwindling.  How sad his forsaken faerie princess would have been on the laird's wedding day!  And would her father, the powerful King of the Faeries, just stand idly by, doing nothing at his daughter's tears?  Likely not.  Why, surely, he'd have visited the groom after the wedding and pronounced a curse on the lairds of the clan! The curse would have been aimed at making sure no future laird cast aside another beloved to wed for money or power.  It would have been a curse of love. 

And so the rest of the story of the McLeod legend became my first book in the Forever Series, A Faerie Fated Forever

While faeries may appear in the books at unpredictable intervals (the wee folk thrive on the unexpected, after all) the series isn't about faeries.  It's about what strong alpha males will do to secure their happily forever after.  The whole series is a flip side of the rest of the story.  Real life is too often about what women change, alter, amend or surrender in the name of love.  What do the men face?  What would we like them to face?  Wouldn't we like to see men who've had it all their way for way too long get so crazed with love that they'd surrender pride and duty and even do the thing they'd sworn never, ever to do?  Of course we would, and in the forever series, they do just that.

...continue reading "The Flip Side of The Rest of The Story"

I've just uploaded A Sixth Sense Of Forever to Amazon's Kindle.  It will be available on Smashwords soon.  I'll probably go ahead and publish it to Lulu and Scribd, although I'm not certain.   

My talented graphic designer/computer programmer hubby did the cover, and it has deep meaning for the novel.  I think it's one of his best.   He's working to format it for CreateSpace, so it should be available in paperback on Amazon soon.

After the Amazon paperback is out, I'll upload the ebook to Lightningsource, the phenomenal ebook distribution service I'm now working with.  I hope to publish paperback versions with them soon, because they have a great network of retail partners for ebooks and paperbacks.  Unfortunately, there are some additional costs for publishing paperbacks through LS - namely, the purchase of ISBN numbers.  A block of 10 costs about $250-$300 and in today's economy with a downsized household and an eldest about to start college - that expense will just have to wait. 

But the book is on the way, so keep your eyes open!  It is Boz's story, and I think everyone who read Faerie and Golden wants to see how Boz handles his courtship.  Here's a hint - The Duke of Sedgewick gets struck harder than Nial or Colt.  But then, he had it coming.  

Check out Sixth Sense  and let me know what you think!

UPDATE 08/09/2009 10:00 P.M. from angryoldfatman:

A Sixth Sense Forever is already available for purchase on Kindle, though the page is only partially updated (e.g., no description yet). I have linked to it from the book list page and changed all mentions of the title in this blog post to point to the book itself. The sidebar has also been updated.

Other links will be added to the list as Sixth Sense becomes available via the other sales channels Mary Anne mentioned.

Happy reading!

I'm currently in the midst of a  pre-publication edit of A Sixth Sense Of Forever.  Yeah, Boz's story.  He played prominent roles in Faerie and Golden as the friend who kept his cool in the midst of Nial's and Colt's chaotic adventures.  So he's got it coming and he gets it - over the top and then some. 

In the course of this edit, given the current state of the world, the job market and everything, I keep thinking - what if we could edit our lives?  Think of the sections you could go back and rewrite.  You could take back the phrase "I quit" or you could say it instead of saying "I'll accept that."  You could respond differently to a job review or rewind all the way back to college and major in something different.  You could keep the one that got away or re-script a fight or nasty e-mail exchange with your spouse so that the words you can never take back get taken back.  So wouldn't it be great to get a shot at editing your life?

Well, there's a problem with that.  Like the old cliche about woman's work, editing is never done.  What book is ever the absolute best it can be in the mind of its greatest advocate and worst critic - the writer?   If Shakespeare had another shot at Romeo and Juliet  or if Margaret Mitchell could revise Gone With The Wind would they change anything?  As a writer who knows how I'd answer that question, I'm betting they'd find a hundred or more things they'd revise in what legions of readers find to be great work.  Because if you ask any author whether this book or that play is the absolute best it can be, the answer is always going to be - no, I can make it better.

With this edit of  Sixth Sense I find that the big bones of the story stand up well.  It's the little details I'm revising....a word here, a phrase there, rewriting a description or changing a comparison.  Mostly, as is generally the case, I find I can tighten up the language to make the story flow along faster and smoother.   The numerous places where I can tighten dialogue, edit lines and revise scenes are likely products of my creative process.  When I sit down to write something new, I make no effort to contain or control - I follow my muse where she leads.  With the hindsight of editing, I can make muse's meanderings make sense.

I suspect that all writers are prone to editing, but I don't know if they're as prone as I am.  I never like to post anything or send it to anyone without looking at it one more time.  If I got a call from an editor or agent tomorrow saying they'd read the posted free samples of Brotherly or Faerie and wanted to read the fulls, I'd make changes.  If they said they'd read the fulls and needed a word copy to present to a board or to revise themselves - I'd still make changes.  I expect that if they published the book and I passed it on a bookstore shelf somewhere I could leaf through it and yes, find things I'd like to change.  I wonder if my favorite writers - Julia Quinn and Johanna Lindsey - pick up one of their old volumes, flip through it and think - Boy, I could do that so much better today.   

The bottom line of the editing process is that as long as I'm growing and changing, as long as I'm working and improving my craft, then I'll see changes I could make to improve any past project.  If I didn't see those changes it would mean I'd stopped growing and learning and improving.  And that would be a very, very bad thing.

It's too bad that we don't get a chance to edit our real life stories to make them flow more smoothly.  Maybe that's because the bumps and bruises, the miscalculations and mistakes give us the experience that got us to today.  And maybe, where we are today is where we're meant to be right now, at this moment. 

We can't edit our pasts, but we can use that editor's eye to change our futures.  We need to pull out the story of our yesterdays and see the places we'd like to re-write and revise and understand the spots we'd like to alter.  We can't change yesterday's mistakes but we can refuse to bring the past into tomorrow.

Today is Volume I.  Tomorrow is the sequel.

To query or not to query, that is the question.

I stay about a project ahead. So right now, I'm doing a final, pre-publication edit on Boz's story, the third in my forever series - A Sixth Sense Of Forever.  My talented hubby, the graphic design guru, is working on the cover.  We hope to have it up and out very soon. 

I started editing Sixth Sense  after I finished my just-written legal-contemporary romance, Griffin's Law.  In the olden days of yore, before the gates of freedom and the rise of the internet made self publishing financially viable, I'd be working on a query letter about now.  That means, I'd be getting out my old, faithful list of literary agents and crafting the best letter in the history of letters to try to convince them that they want, need, bloody have to read the full of my MS.   This time around, I haven't even started the query. 

So I could be, perhaps should be, composing a letter to sell my MS to agents in the hope that one can sell it to a publisher.  The publisher would take a year or more to turn it into a book and then try to sell the book to Barnes & Noble, Wal Mart, Books a Million, etc.  If all of that succeeded, then the book might eventually, someday, be sitting on a shelf, trying to lure you -  all of you -- to put it in their basket and take it to the register.

Today, I can skip all the steps and put it out there for you to read and hopefully buy and more hopefully enjoy.  And it's not just little old me lured by the possibilities of getting it out there fast.  I understand that the Vonnegut estate is about to put the late, great literary geniuses' final work, short stories, out as an ebook first.  If the goal is to get the work in the reader's hands, ebooks do it a lot faster.

I love writing.  In my dream world, I'd get up every day and sit before my computer and write.  When reality and a day job don't intervene, I'm a pretty prolific writer.  I don't love trying to sell myself to an agent.  I don't look forward to getting a query letter together and getting it out there so that eventually agents can request material.  I'd then spend weeks and weeks, sometimes months, and in the case of my last contact with an agent - over a year and a half - waiting to get the letter that says thanks, but no thanks.  Oh, I suppose I at least progressed in the process.  My latter letters all generally said, you're a good writer, but....  Yeah, having folks who work with so many excellent writers say you can write is a compliment.  And I do and did appreciate it.  But it's a back-handed compliment at best - you're good, you're just not good enough for me and I've decided you're not good enough for publishers or the American public.

Self publishing is the ultimate act of democracy.  Am I good enough for the American public?  Will you enjoy the stories I so enjoyed writing?  Will you get my over-the-top style and understand it's a little bit "I wish men in love acted that way" and a little bit tongue in cheek?  Maybe or maybe not, but I don't have to convince a bunch of folks in the middle that I'm good enough to have the opportunity.  America is the land of opportunity and I can put it out there and let you decide. 

...continue reading "To Query Or Not To Query?"

Yes, Virginia, the economy isn't just in the toilet - it's already in the sewer. So it comes as no surprise that the publishing and e-publishing industries are circling the drain. Will they go the way of the job market, the housing market and the credit market? Not if we can help it. But can we?

Most of us don't have the ability or the resources to hire a bunch of folks. We can't even save them from the scary place after the unemployment benefits run out. We can't buy a hundred houses or donate enough money so that the banks and credit card companies stop acting like Chicken Little. There are so many really big things we can't do, can't help or can't stop that we lose site of one really, really ENORMOUS thing we can do, we can help, we can stop.

We can save publishing and e-publishing.

Yes, you and I and all of the regular average folks like us can save the industry that means so much, that has given us so much. Who hasn't sat in the waiting room of a doctor's office or by or in a hospital bed and read a book or an e-book to will away the worry? We've all given friends or family a small inspirational book or two about overcoming grief, suicide, addiction or debt.  Haven't we all gotten up during the night to read a few pages from a book to chase away the fears and doubts that keep us from sleep or invade our dreams? Just think about all the things the words written by others have meant in your life.

I write romance because that's what takes me out of my world and inspires me to enjoy or create another world, another place. The books I read and those I write have always included second chances that led to happy endings. When has that ever mattered more than today?  The news, the blogs, and even the water cooler conversations today are all about poor Bob who lost his job or Jane's family who just got served with foreclosure pleadings.  If we let in too much of that negativity, then it begins to seep into our blood stream until it finds its dastardly way to our spirit.  Once there, the bleak black void will eat away at the edges until it's destroyed the seat of our hopes and dreams.  Soon it will convince us that nothing is worth trying for, believing in or battling to save.

This year lots of families can't afford their usual trip to the mountains or the beach.  But all of us can afford to buy a book that will take us to Paris or Tahiti or Mars.  Not only can we afford that book, we must consider it not so much an indulgence as an act of protest.  Whatever the rest of the economy and the bleak prognosticators throw at us, they can't destroy the spirit that allows us to believe we can survive, we can overcome.  They can't destroy our hope if we don't wave the white flag and surrender it without a battle.

If every person who has ever gotten joy, hope, belief or renewal from the written word just buys one book or one e-book a week, then the industry that's fed our spirits can survive.  And when we have a better week, instead of going to a movie, we can buy a second book or a third.  Come on now, we all know whatever entertainment we get from the movie will fade mighty fast.  But we'll dig out those books time and time again.  The books and e-books that build your spirit, bolster your hope and make you believe in happy endings this month can do it again next month and next year. 

Yes, the economy has already circled the drain, gone down it and now lurks in the sewer, hoping it is recycled rather than washed out to sea.  And yes, the publishing and the e-publishing industries are now circling that drain.  But it's not inevitable that the book and e-book industries go the way of the rest of the business world. 

Some things are still worth fighting for, and by God, I, for one, find books and e-books to be amongst the things I refuse to lose. 

We can be the stopper and plug the drain, one book purchase at a time.

Mary Anne's husband here again with a brief announcement: A Golden Forever, the second book in Mary Anne's Forever series, is now available in paperback from CreateSpace. It will eventually arrive on Amazon.com; when it does, I will provide a link to it on the book list page.

In the meantime, enjoy my wife's blog entry about Michael Jackson the romance novelist below. AOFM, a.k.a. Hubby, out.

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Okay, get your mind off of all the weirdness of MJ's latter years.  As for the criminal charges, don't go there.  Think about the music and the performances.  Get yourself in that mind space.  Maybe it'll help if you squeal "Ooh" and "I'm Bad" three or four times.  Okay, focused now? 

 His death was tragic. Having a creative force like his snuffed out so quickly, so needlessly has deprived the world of years of music and magic.  So while it's certainly his tragedy, his family's tragedy, it's also a loss for everyone who ever turned on a radio or downloaded music.  In the wake of the sudden loss there were many retrospectives and tributes.

As one of those tributes Fox re-broadcast the first American Idol finalist show of this season featuring the top 13 performing Michael Jackson songs.  I watch American Idol and enjoy seeing the group working and growing into music professionals.  It's always fun to see someone working to make their dream come true.  But I'd forgotten about that MJ show because, at the time, it was just another show.  Too bad it wasn't done later in the season with the gloved one giving the finalists performance critiques and suggestions. 

My favorite contestant of this past season was Adam Lambert.  We all recall that he finished second.  My only explanation for that is that Kris Allen was everyman -- the one more like the average American watching on the sofa at home.  Adam has too much creative force to be contained or labeled in any one genre or tradition.  Adam will never be anyone's everyman -- but neither is Elton John and, of course, neither was Michael Jackson. 

As one of the last performances of the show, Adam Lambert did MJ's "Black or White."  Adam nailed it, standing out from the others like Sir Elton at a High School talent contest.  His performance impressed the judges too, including Simon Cowell, the one we love to hate and hate to love.  Simon's comments made me think and inspired this post.  Simon said Adam nailed it because (and I'm paraphrasing here because I didn't watch the episode with pen in hand) - To make a MJ song work , a performer has to be totally comfortable on stage, and he has to perform the song like Michael - over the top.

Why did that resonate with me? When Adam and MJ perform, they do it over the top.  When I write romance, I write it over the top.  For a writer or performer to succeed, he or she has to do it the way it comes naturally.  If Kris Allen tried to perform MJ over the top, it wouldn't work for him at all.  It worked for Lambert because that's how his art speaks to him.  It's the same for a romance novelist.  You can only write romance over the top and have it carry the reader along if that's how the story and the characters speak to the writer.  I understand MJ's approach to music because I know it must have come as naturally to him as my stories come to me. 

...continue reading "If Michael Jackson Wrote Romance Novels…"

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In this corner, we have Mobipocket, a wiry French fighter. He's got a lot of experience but it takes a whole team of folks to get him into the ring.

In the other corner, we have PayPal, a brawny little up and coming American pugilist.  He's well financed but the set of his jaw speaks to a hidden agenda. 

But wait, sports fans, if we want to get a real handle on this battle, we can't look at the boxers in the ring.  We've got to check out the training rooms in the back.  Wait a minute, they look a lot alike.  Full of skinny businessmen in dark suits with fire and dollar signs in their eyes.  Who are these guys? 

It's not Mobi vs PayPal at all.  Why, it's, it's ............Amazon against Ebay!!

We don't know whose gonna win, but we know whose most likely to lose - the writers who carry as much weight in this battle as the bait at the end of a fishing lure. 

Mobi has been having some trouble for a while.  Allegedly, it has a long, long list of e-tailers that carry the e-books of authors who offer them for sale through Mobi.  But in recent months, sales of writers have been drying up until they disappear altogether.  A read of Mobi's chat boards features posts of a number of authors, including yours truly, saying that their sales had been going gangbusters until presto, chango, they came to a dead stop.  At that point, some enterprising authors - not me, but I wish it had been - commenced looking for a way to get their royalty money out of Mobi's accounts and into their own.  See, Mobi has a policy.  It pays no royalties to writers until they total $150.00.  Funny, sales seems to stop about the time many writers would reach that threshold. 

Anyway, at least one enterprising chap figured out that if he canceled his Mobi account, that Mobi would have to pay him all accumulated royalties, whatever they totaled.  Great.  Since nobody seems to be selling enough to reach the magic number, why not pull out and wait for Mobi to suffer enough losses that it fixes the royalty structure.  Well, there's just one problem with that.  It's the little matter of getting the money to the writer.

Mobi has stated on its forum site that PayPal is not processing payments to writers from Mobi.  Other comments, from e-tailers, say that PayPal is also not processing payments to Mobi.  Why?  Mobi says PayPal objects to some of the content carried on Mobi. The Mobi site does carry a large erotic section that goes a lot further than sensual romance description in more mainstream books.  Mobi carries erotic tales that are more like a literary version of porn movies.  Essentially, Mobi carries what people post and leaves the filtering to the e-tailers and to the public's power of the mouse.

...continue reading "David vs. the Munchkins, or is it Goliath vs. Gigantor?"

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Fathers are a lot like movie stars.

They cast the biggest, the broadest, the most all-encompassing shadow in the house.  They inspire, motivate, de-motivate and terrorize.  And all too often, they do it all without ever trying.  The memory that sticks in my mind from my own family features my hubby and Zack, our eldest (now 18 and about to head off to UCF to college although Mommy isn't sure how she'll like the dorm room). 

Zack, as a combat crawler at the age when he should have been toddling, had a couple of challenges.  First, his Mom worried constantly that he might be hungry.  (She still does).  Today he can just give me the look, say he loves me, and leave the table.  As a creepy crawler, he didn't have that option.  So he was a big butterball of a baby and toddling presented size challenges.  Second, his own mental make-up, even at that little age, meant he didn't want to do anything until he could succeed.  He did his combat crawling while his peers held onto furniture and took lurching little steps. 

Then one day Zack's dad was in the kitchen and Zack and Mom were in the den.  Dad started whistling and Zack jumped to his feet and ran into the kitchen, chasing the man making the merry noise.  Yeah, his Father inspired his first steps without even trying.

...continue reading "An Ode To Daddy Dearest"